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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Why I don't post much anymore..

Cause I simply do not have anything to say. Lately I feel like all I do is complain about how bored I am at work. I simply do not have enough work to do. Nothing overly crazy going on at home right now either.

Lily has been kinda fussy lately, found out why on Sunday afternoon. The girl is getting molars. Yup, that would make me crabby too. But needless to say it's been waking her up a bit at night, which wakes us up. (thankfully she goes back to sleep on her own, but it seems one you are awake, you are awake none-the-less) SO I am hoping those will pop in sooner rather than later.

Got cut back down to 32 hours at work, for how long I do not know. But I guess I don't mind cause each 8 hour day feels like an eternity here. It just drags.

Lily has her 15 month appointment on Friday (even though she will be 16 months next week already) So I will update with some new stats and stuff that the Dr. said after that is over.

Other than that. I got nothing. Inspire me! What would you (my like 3 readers) like me to write about. I am in need of some inspiration.

Friday, September 11, 2009

A Post in Pictures. (for the lazy blogger)

Labor Day 2009
MN Zoo
Lillian with the "puppies" also known as Wolves to those of us that have a vocabulary of more than 10 words. She is petting him here.

Lily and me. A nice picture of us too if I don't say so myself. (hey, check out my dimples)

Lily and Antie Amber. She came to the zoo with us, or rather we went with her. Thanks again Amber, we had fun!


Lillian with the Tiger statue at the MN Zoo. She is "petting the kitty" here.

Let's all give the "Kitty" a hug!


Lily also got to feed the giraffes, she got a kick out of it and had a VERY slimy hand at the end. But it was worth it. Only wish we had gotten pictures...I forgot my camera (some photographer I am huh) and Amber's battery died. Oh well, there is always next year.


Friday, September 4, 2009

Not a usual post for me.

Inspired by a friends blog, it got me thinking about Lily. About what an easy time we had getting pregnant, and besides being so ridiculously sick for most of my pregnancy, how easy of a time we had with it. I always had thought to myself that if I couldn't have a baby it was meant to be that way. But now, after reading her entry I find myself wondering what we would have done in their shoes? Would we have given up? I mean, knowing what I know now about how wonderful Lily is and how amazing it is to be a mom I'm pretty certain my answer would be we'd go through the same. But had you asked me that 2 years ago when we started trying for a baby, I'm not so sure.

I found myself crying at her thread. Really feeling for them and while I can only imagine a fraction of what they went through, I am so thankful everyday for the easy time we had with Lily. And how lucky we are that things worked out the way they did for us.

Lately I've been feeling a little lost in life. I actually said to Adam last night that the only two things I feel secure and good about right now are him and Lily. There is no question in my mind that I love Adam. Despite many jokes, we are truly partners. We love each other even when we hate each other. And of course Lily. My amazingly smart (not so) baby girl. She brightens my day, everyday with her smile and her wacky sense of humor. Her love of books and learning new things.

But everywhere else, I'm just lost. I feel lost at work. I like my co-workers, the flexibility I have here and of course the pay. But I hate that I have nothing to do. I hate that the days drag on and mostly I hate that I'm so bored that all I want to do is eat, which is not helping me at all on my quest to be healthy and make better choices. I need to change. But can't afford to do so.

But today, on this Friday before a nice long weekend, I think I'll just be thankful that we have been so lucky. So fortunate to not have to struggle. So blessed to have an amazing little girl with minimal effort.

Thank you Sarah for putting that into perspective for me.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

So this explains a lot actually...

Monday morning Adam called me at about 7 to tell me that the girl was sick, stuffy nose, phlegmy cough, the works. I decided to stay home with her (and subsequently Adam stayed home too). She seemed fine on Sunday minus a little stuffy nose. But when I look back on last week, she was very much NOT herself, her normal, chatty fun well behaved self. And that explains it, she was probably getting sick last week and we just didn't notice. I guess that's what happens when you have a baby that NEVER gets sick.

Anyway she seems to be on the upswing of things now. And we can officially call this her first time being sick.

Think I should save some snot to put in her baby book?

Friday, August 28, 2009

This MUST be some kind of sick joke..

So I don't even make an effort to hide the fact that I have NO work to do anymore at my job. I come here, I play on the Internet and get paid for it. But as my husband says, I have reached the end of the Internet. I am so bored and feel like my "talents" are being wasted here. The problem? Nothing I could get for a new job would pay me as well as I get paid now. In many parts of my life I am feeling stuck and this one is no exception. Don't have funds to go back to school, even if I did not sure what the heck I would do anyway? Can't afford to quit or take a pay cut. So here I am. Trying to keep myself busy with random projects (that are quickly wrapping themselves up) Miserable. Everyone seems to think it's so great. But honestly, it's not. I am tired, burned out and ready for some challenges, which I'm most definitely not getting here.

So what do I do?

And in the meantime, anyone have any great websites to while away the boring hours here?

A post I'm sure ALL moms can relate to.

So lately when I've had to update a profile picture for say, Facebook or other sites I use, I use a picture of Lillian. Until yesterday, when I sorta wanted a picture of myself but low and behold, I did not have one. Not a single one of me, unless Lily was in the picture with me. And don't get me wrong I love my Little monster. But there are times when I want to be Miranda, and not Lillian's Mom. I Love being her mom and would do anything in the world for her, but someday I'll have to be Miranda again and I won't know what the heck to do with myself.

So I had Adam take some pictures of me this morning so I could update with pictures of just myself. And as I edited the photos it came to my attention that I Hated the pics. No, he didn't do anything wrong when taking them, I just don't like them. *sigh* I guess I just can't win.

Anyway, here's a picture of me and the monster together this morning. The last Friday she's going to grandmas and therefore the last Friday I'll get to see her in the morning. So we did a pony this morning and no outfit could be complete without some "lipstick" She carries them everywhere and clearly she wasn't having any of it when I tried to pull her arm down for the picture. So stubborn. Not sure where she gets that from though....



Wednesday, August 26, 2009

My 15 month old...







Had her very first sleepover.

Can say MANY words now, puppy, daddy, ducky, hi, baby.

Will happily run and give daddy a hug and kiss before bedtime.

Can't go to sleep without having a story read.

Did I mention she has to choose the story.

Her current favorite is Lullabye Little One.

Can drink with a straw and almost prefers it that way.

Is definitely getting the hang of a spoon and fork.

RUNS from you when you are outside cause she likes to be chased.

Would rather be outside than inside.

Refuses to smile at me when I try to take her picture (thus the reason there aren't many pictures lately)
Makes me laugh at LEAST once a day.

Has 8 Teeth!