Many of you may remember THIS post. It's where I laid out my options and struggled to come to a decision about going back to work, staying home, or staying home and finding some work to do.
It's not over, in fact, it's FAR from over. It's still a struggle. There are still days where I want to stay home...and there are still days when I can't wait to go back to work.
For the most part, now that Claire is becoming more human and less devil, I feel like I would still want to stay home with the girls. I think I'd be really good at it and it would be good for our family. However finances tell us another story. A sad story where Adam's pay is just a smidge short of our living expenses, not to mention there would be no room for savings or doing ANYTHING fun. So Back to work I go. For now anyway. It's definitely not a closed option down the road if something came up. But for now we do what we have to do for our family.
Only a little over a week before I go back. Which bums me out as I spent most of my maternity leave struggling with the adjustment and learning the ins and outs of the baby, and now it's time to go back to work when I feel like I'm really getting used to it and getting used to the new routine of things. I would like more time. More time to really feel things out and figure out what is best. What the best choice would be. Sadly that's just not going to happen.
Hopefully I can get this thing figured out sooner rather than later.